awww, that's so sad hun! Try not to feel guilty as freaky thing's happen that we have no control over. I know you are having a horrible time. :-)
I lost my cat right before christmas, he was 1 1/2, and I saved him from a shelter. This cat was a "Stallion" for a cat, he was fixed and he still wanted to go outside, wonderful neighborhood, soon he began to hunt, kill and bring us his catch. He would just kill birds, mice and rats, I hated it!!!! He did start with lizards, I would be cleaning around the pool and I would find little lizard bodies all over. Anyways!!!!! BLAH, he got into something or some kind of poison! He began to act weird, after dropping close to 2k right before christmas on trying to save him, he got worse and I had to put him to sleep he was suffering. Long story shorter...lol, time is your only friend, like losing a family member!
I hope time flies for you.
xoxo
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