So one day I decide -- I'm really going to try this stuff... i'm not sure why I decided to do this -- but I just started doing a LOT of research on weed and THC to make sure that it was absolutely safe -- because I don't want to fuck with my brain -- I read a lot of research studies -- everything that I could find -- and basically my conclusion was that nobody has ever died from smoking the stuff and the only "negative" effects come from smoking like every day for years... that's when your short-term memory gets affected in terms or reaction time... but seriously I'd never smoke that much -- and I really don't use my short term memory much anyway -- in fact there are probably benefits to not having short term memory hehe... anyway I won't go there... point is I bought some from a trusted source -- and just tried a little bit at a time... slowly increased the amount that I smoked in one "session" so I could see how much was the right amount for me...
Eventually I smoked just the right amount (which is very little by most people's standards probably) and I got basically all the textbook effects... the coolest being an experience of timelessness, conceptualizing the function/facets of memory... I wrote this all down somewhere... I realized that some of the ideas that I came up with during smoking really turned my life around and altered all my future behavior -- i'd say for the better...
If you just want to fool around and have fun -- sure go ahead and drink. I do not think weed should be something you use to just get the shits and giggles... The reason you are giggling is because your body and mind are going into a euphoric state -- a heightened state of awareness... if you do not know how to compensate for this excitedness you will just look like a fucking moron or an insane person... so you have to bring yourself back down to earth again... if you think about how tired you are, or how depressing something is, or some mistake that you made in life -- you will start to calm down... pretty much you give yourself some false anxiety or false depression in order neutralize that "giddy" state if it's too strong for you... Camus describes this a little bit... and you start to see that your whole life is a balance of euphoria and depression -- only what is the happy marriage between these two items? Or is there virtue in keeping the balancing act running... ?
"The consolation of this world is that there are no comtinuous sufferings. A pain disappears and a joy is reborn. All balances out. This world is counterbalanced. And if even our will extracts from the future a priviledged suffering that we raise to the level of a force in order to feel it constantly, there is in that choice a proof that we consider such suffering as a good and there, this time, compensation resides."
That's translated from French -- i'd try to interpret it for you but you get the basic idea... He's challenging/connecting our experience of time to the binaries of pleasure/pain joy/suffering... Camus fucking amazes me and some of the stuff that he says just makes me think he was stoned out of his mind... even more crazy is half the shit that he says I thought of earlier the same day I read him write it...
