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You ever wake up in the morning and just wish you could start over?
Ever think that if you just did "one" thing differently... Everything in your life would have been entirelly better?
If you had only shook this persons hand or took up that long lost stripper up on her idea for you to create that website for her back in 95? WHAT IF that A&R guy liked my Demo? WHat if I had just chased music for the rest of my life and signed with that one band that got semi famous and just IF I were there it would have been world famous? All instead of Porn? Maybe I should have taken that promotion, maybe I should have just kept my mouth shut when helping that someone. Maybe I should have just been a studio musician instead of all of this?
What if... The big mother fucker of all questions in Life. WHAT IF?
I have had alot to reflect on as of late. My life is getting shorter with each day and I use my days wasting away for nothing. I have peace and quiet, to much peace, to much quiet.
I am 36 now and alot of memories bother me I could have an entirelly different life yet I chose this.
For nothing.
You are fucking right I am bitter and angry and I got good reason to be.
I wasted my life in porn working for people that hate me.
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