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Originally Posted by marketsmart
i am going to be respectful because some good friends of mine are contractors for blackwater and triple canopy.. they are exactly what you are describing, but they are fucked up.. they are not normal or the same people anymore and frankly I dont feel comfortable around them without a loaded weapon..
if you truly feel the way you say, then you need some serious mental help and I dont mean that in a derogatory way..
i will never try to understand what people see and feel in a combat situation, but i can clearly see the mental damage combat does...
do yourself and the world a favor and go seek some help,,, what you are feeling inside is not normal and will need to be vented at some point...
and BTW, the guy who claims to bite throats out is full of shit and delusional...
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No fears.. I'm not who I once was, even though it is still within me. It's something I was born with, that wasn't understood until I was in my mid 20's, but was set off while in the Marines.
I have been out 12 years, and calm the last 7... I was medically discharged, for mental issues, I have spent time in the ward. I get no VA benefits because I went to work for myself rather than on drugs that made my brain go mush, that was the 'help' they wanted to give me.
I'm good today, I just try to avoid situations that bother me, not for safety but just because it sucks for me. Like, I don't like to get surprised by events unknown, like someone showing up without calling can set off my adrenaline. Not in a bad way, it just sucks trying to calm down for the next day over nothing.