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Originally Posted by TheDoc
I can tell you what is different.. Normal for you, is no adrenaline, and when you have it you have learned to control it.
Normal for me, or once was, was almost max adrenaline all the time, so that was normal, it was under control in my mind as I didn't know it wasn't normal. A "fix" for me, was to do extreme sports, or just extremely stupid shit. It would bring me back up to the peak, making me feel calm, like I just got a fix from a drug.
I'm very different than you, you have the luxury of being able to be social, do what you want in public, fight, train... I can't do that anymore, I don't respond the same way. Days afterwards my mind is just twisted for the rush of the drug, I'm fine to train, just not fine to be social afterwards, I can't come down from the high like you..
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i am going to be respectful because some good friends of mine are contractors for blackwater and triple canopy.. they are exactly what you are describing, but they are fucked up.. they are not normal or the same people anymore and frankly I dont feel comfortable around them without a loaded weapon..
if you truly feel the way you say, then you need some serious mental help and I dont mean that in a derogatory way..
i will never try to understand what people see and feel in a combat situation, but i can clearly see the mental damage combat does...
do yourself and the world a favor and go seek some help,,, what you are feeling inside is not normal and will need to be vented at some point...
and BTW, the guy who claims to bite throats out is full of shit and delusional...