Halcyon, you are so positive I only wonder how you deal with the people who get offended at your happiness.
And sometimes one has to really hit rock bottom before they realize any of this. I was angry for years. Now I just laugh. And I am still my asshole self, realizing how much the world sucks. I filter it out, and am glad it is not me.
But you have one chance in this world, take it and make it the best time you can.