Hey Sleazy... I go through depressed moments of my life from time to time, and refuse to take medication.. The medications basically "normalize" you.. So that you don't have so many ups and downs.. But who wants to live life riding a flatline?
Not me.. I'll take my downs like a man, so I can feel my highs like a child again.
This song really hit home for me, I hope it helps you too. Read it twice!
Song is called Dancing in the Rain, by Blu and Exile.
Check it
Sometimes I hate takin trips to the lab,
got my pen and pad, book of instrumentals and smash,
catch the bus regardless, tryin hard to be an artist
but my A&R be callin me out my zone into his office,
bein cautious, cuz he don't want my record to brake,
askin me how I think my project's progressin and shit,
I said cool. But the truth is, I'm stressin a grip,
cuz it's hard to make music when this depression exists
they say use it as inspiration - the best of 'em did
but I still see, I can't handle this pressure for shit
and if you ask me, stress is a bitch. My girl needs more attention
and my record label's desperate for hits
Now I'm pissed cuz I'm gettin out the zone again,
makes me start to dread when I see a microphone and shit
... it ain't supposed to be like that.. I said I'll be right back,
I left the office, got on the phone and called my partner Jack
and I asked him - remind me why I rap?
And right before he answered, I remembered my passion in the past,
when I was scribblin in my tablet, or to box out my mom and dad scrappin',
to help me when my grandmother passed,
plus the many times when I was homeless, and times when I was broke,
and this music made a way when I was hopeless
He told me to remember the rain, it'll diminish the pain,
then he told me not to ask anything - cuz I know...