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The reason I am afraid to be exclusive because that is what I was suppose to be in the first place. and look what happened there, OCcash hasn't officially offered me anything they mentioned something to me I am more scared and skeptic to try anything because of what happened.
I can't get a loan for university not until I clear up my 30,000 of debt and rebuild my credit back in good standing. Right now that $100.00 I got from cams means the world to me. As for giving up I haven't thrown in the towel I am fighting kicking and screaming still because I know I could have a decent website if I find the right people to work wtih.
Right now caming is my life line. as for a website I have no idea if I will get one. before I can sign with anyone I have to make myself ready to even go on the camera and have my picture taken all over again.
I am not refusing any help, just that right now I am in no position to do a shoot let alone fly anywhere so even a company says they will make my site for me it will take about 3 months or longer for me to be even able to get to the airport and be able to shoot 10 scenes in a week and god know show many pictures. it's mentally draining to do that. and the fact I am sticking wtih finishing high school because getting my GED will not get me into the midwifery program at ryerson I have to start all over again and being 23 with only so many years left that I can actually have a decent body in this industry makes me more skeptic to sign anything for anyone .
and for the ignorant losers refering to pimps and hoes FUCK OFF
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