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The best way to describe what I experienced for 4 months non-stop was "overly aware of my own existance". Shrink said it was panic disorder...
My vision was distorted and everything seemed really far away. I would at any moment suddenly realize "whoa, i exist." and would start concentrating on my distorted vision and begin to panic. What ended up helping me cope was weed. I would smoke it, and I would still feel really out of it, however due to the fact I was high I could at least attribute in my head that the bad feeling, distorted vision and discomfort were attributed to the drug not just there for no apparent reason like when I was sober.
What ended up really fixing me was hypnotherapy. I recommend you try this, Juicy. It gets pretty expensive at around $200-300 an hour, though.
I still get anxiety from time to time and tend to get startled really easily, but 99.9% of my problem is gone. The meds I was on before the hypno-therapy were zoloft and lorozephan. The zoloft I took 1 pill and had diarrhea for 10 hours. The ativan I dissolved under my tongue as needed but it sort of made me completely mellow and emotionless like a zombie. I also tried wellbutrin, which worked very well but gave me chest pains.
Hit me up if you want more info on that hypnotherapy shit. It sounds like voodoo but it really worked
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