You need a job and just called your former employer a bitch, which she might very well be but that makes no sense and threatening them is just strange. You're not going to sue anyone.
It's apparent that you've asked for some small amounts for people. Whether you pay them is irrelevant honestly. Being someone who needs a job, this isn't smart. No one is going to hire you now.
If crashing and burning out of this business was your agenda, you've done that very well.
There's been mention of cancer and other things so I hope the best for you but I have a feeling all doors in this business are closed as of now. You couldn't do it on your own so the need for employment. Those positions are gone now. No one hires someone who has a spaz freak publicly about their employer. Regardless of whether the employer was wrong or not. Threatening people who make more than you and making it public puts a big label of liability on your back.
No company will trust you now. I hope things work out for you but a message board character never trumps money or taints established relationships. This has ruined you in this business.
A level head and the ability to trust your employees are the two most valuable qualities employers seek. Why hire someone that will potentially blow a fuze and run to a board based on past experience.
Good luck in whatever you do. Your best bet would have been to keep quiet and keep your employment opportunities available.
