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Here's the thing:
I'm on an adult board and I've made lots of enemies here. No matter what I say, the two of them will come on later and refute it all and you'll all believe them instead of me. This is just a waste of time. I think I'll just log off and watch a movie.
Believe what you wish. Yep, I'm a bit off my rocker. That's what happens to someone who gets their heart broken. Belinda was everything to me and I intended to be with her for life. Watching her fall in love with another man over the course of 18 months, fighting to make that stop and not being successful, then losing everything I've owned (including my dogs) and starting over with really screwed up credit, having all my "friends" completely abandon me... all that will do things to a person. But I'm dealing. I've been going to counseling and attempting to make new memories.
So what if I'm involved in church? Isn't the adult industry supposed to be "open minded"? Does that open mindedness only extend to those who are "like minded"? It certainly seems that way.
And even if I was bashing the industry, like so many insist, have I hurt any of your paychecks with my words?
So by all means, please wait for Mark and Belinda to come back on and tell all of you how screwed up I am. How crazy I am. Then just believe it. Don't go back and compare anything I've written to what they say, just believe them. Have fun with that.
Mark's a very charming person. He's great with words and persuasion. He'll have you seeing things his way without any problem. Sorry, I'm not as slick as him.
I'm out for now. I'm not promising I won't be back but I really shouldn't be. Besides, I'll be locked out again somehow, I'm sure.
'Night for now...
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