Originally Posted by John Hughes

Most of the phone calls and messages from me were out of frustration over stuff like this. I couldn't believe they were being so juvenile. SPANNOW is older than me, yet he acts just as immature as her. Moreso, actually. Most of our issues could have been resolved with CIVIL phone calls or a face-to-face sit down. I invited Belinda to bring Mark up to Redding or for me to come down there but they both thought it would be much easier to just be ridiculously immature about it.

Yes, there was a message sent to her myspace page about suicide. I won't deny that. But I did NOT say I was going to commit suicide if she didn't respond. I told her "I tried checking into a hospital today because I was feeling suicidal. I really could use a friend to talk to". (read my blog entry that was posted today if you want to hear more about that the url is banned here, though. just do a google search for donny's ramblings). That was a HUGE mistake. HUGE. Instead, she had a good laugh with him. But I was so emotional at the time I thought she'd actually care and talk to me. I don't want her back, but needed a friend that day. Dumb dumb dumb to think she could be it, but after you're with someone so long you think they might care enough to listen when you need a shoulder, know what i mean?

Anyway, I am not saying I've not done some stupid stuff, but it is WAY overblown by these two and the things they've done.