Originally Posted by bausch

I don't drink AT ALL, don't do ANY drugs (never tried pot before in my life) and am basically abstinent. ( I even went through a period where I didn't have sex for 6-7 years, from around age 20-26 or so).

The only thing I get pleasure out of life is being on-line, listening to music, food and sometimes spending money...

I never saw a point on drinking or drugs. I'm superficial and rather spend money on materialistic things people can see. Putting things in your body is not tangible, it's not like a car or something people can see... there's no point to it. What's the point of doing it just "for a feeling"?

I don't like to numb my misery and pain and heartache. I like to feel it and savor it. I like to think that I'm strong enough to endure life's pain and miseries and trust me, I have a lot of miseries. I'm not weak enough to need to numb them. I am used to pain. Give me more.

I am proud of all the pain and misery I am able to endure. It makes me stronger.