I was a fantasy to a lot of men but I feel they should know where that "fantasy girl" came from. Many men who view porn do not realize what some of the girls came from or how they feel. Porn has desensitized them. I do not feel me sharing my story with my fans is a bad thing. I have always been very open in my website diary and forum. I think that has been one reason why my fans have stuck around for so long for. I do not feel it would be fair to just leave without explanation to my fans. What difference does it really make that I include God in my explanation or not? He IS the main reason!
You may think it was a bad thing but I have recieved emails from fans that have cried after reading my story. I am even getting emails from webmasters and other models saying the same thing!! It has only been one day and my story has touched many people in a good way. I know a lot of people can relate to things I feel. I will share it with whoever would like to hear. No one is forcing anyone to read my myspace or these threads.
You may not want to believe the reality that porn does hurt families and people but it's true. In the 6 years I have been in the business I have seen it first hand. I have read every single email that has been sent to me and I can tell you that lots people are in pain.
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Originally Posted by Terry Brown
Chrissy, yes females get exploited in this business and I know this that's because they allow them to. Noone is holding a gun to their head and making them do anything they don't want too. You have your reason for getting in this game so do they. But when you go to that GATE and repent your soul, you have to answer for yourself not noone else. These girls that want to do this is probably looking for that affections or a way to make money just to get by. Trust me I know. Glad to see you admitted that you have some weak points in life. Love can bring you happiness but first you have to love yourself.
What I meant by telling your fans you are leaving that was cool but to tell them you are leaving for the lord that throwing shit back at them. At that time you was nothing but a fantasy to these people. Yes some was marry and some wasn't. But to knock a fantasy and throw the lord in their face was basically throwing a whip at them telling they was bad. These guys know they will never have a female like you in their life. You are image of their ideal female and you knock that down 100% and plus you took a big risk.
If you are leaving then leave but to throw stone at people glass house when you left a glass house yourself is not a good business decison at all. Onething you have remember till your contract is over with you still have up hold that image for that company. Once it's over then hey blast it to the world.
Don't become a HYPOCRITE and throw stuff at people all becasue you need inner peace think smart, hold your head up high and keep walking.
Go back to school and get your life together. There is nothing wrong with that. But don't go around preaching about it. Just go and handle your business. The lord is going to be there regardless.
Take what you have learn from this business and make it into something that will work for you and not give you a guilty conscience. Find your inner peace. That's what happiness is about.
Since you feel this why not start a company that will maybe help these females that is in this business. Also remember when you give to someone you get it back twice.
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