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				Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: nethalands 
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					Originally Posted by Donny
					
				 Let me tell you one small thing:
 In the 8 years I've been involved in this business my strong point has been recruiting models.  I have recruited hundreds of girls who would never have taken their clothes off for a camera if they hadn't met me.
 
 Lately we're becoming so well known that almost every model we recruit ends up found by family members.
 
 Now, I can tell myself it's their own fault, they were warned, they signed a 5 page model release telling them exactly what was going to happen, whoop whoop whoop.  But none of that stops the pain every time another girl calls on the phone asking what to do now that daddy and mommy are telling her she's shamed her family.
 
 In LA things are different.  Girls go there to be porn stars.  Up here I advertise and pay referral fees.  Models come in, see my fancy house and nice things, and want to be involved.  The nice things are intoxicating.
 
 These same girls would never have been involved in this business if it weren't for me.
 
 Guilt?  Yeah.  You can say that.  But it also got me thinking about exactly what I'm doing.  And why.  And I came to the conclusion that my role in this industry is very selfish.
 
 I'm not going to insult any of the rest of you for what you do in this business.  But I am going to tell you that, for me, I am done.  And I need help getting out, because God knows I've tried to do it myself a few times.
 
 But this time I'm making it public and making it happen.  And I have to tell you I feel really good about it.  I'm going to lose everything I have, yet I feel warm inside.
 
 I'll still be around.  I'm just out of the porn business myself.  You do what's right for you and your family and I'll be happy for you.  But this isn't good for me anymore.
 
 Know what I mean?
 |  thats great. But why the fuck you gotta join a sick cult to reach that goal and get involved with those hypocrites at *********? its all in the mind, NOT in organized religion. | 
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