you need to find the perfect combination of Xanax, alcohol, serotonin uptake inhibitors and some sort of recreational drug...
or you could lift weights and exercise.
or turn into a survivalist, and harbor paranoid delusions of government conspiracies...heavily arm yourself for the coming holocost...you know the story, you would need to move to Wyoming too
On a serious note,you might consult a competant psychiatrist as it sounds like you have symptoms of depression, which can ruin a lot of good days.