Are you still alive? if so, I'd recommend a 45 to end your pain. Pretty nasty, but you won't care after all. Optionally I've this 9mm that will do the trick, but it's not as fun as the first option
and of course, a good .357 is an option to consider, old fashioned brain blowing
or maybe you'd go to Lebanon and sat on an about to fire Katiushka. Be sure to use some lube.
But please, please, PLEASE just die!
